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Tuesday, May 10, 2011

An Ongoing Tale





He sits in the patio alone, watching the sun preparing to bid adieu for the day… white clouds swirling above match the whiteness of his hair… flocks of birds fly across the pink and orange horizon, heading home after a day’s work. A gentle autumn breeze caresses a lone leaf that still holds on to the branch, not willing to let go reminding him of his loneliness and his tenacity to hold on to his hope. People have come and gone but the emptiness in him never left him. For years now this has been a ritual for him, he never misses a sunset.

The years spent show on the lines of his craggy face. He was always a man of few words, reticent and reserved. He never believed in indulging in emotions, longings for a foregone past or worries of a future. He kept such indulges in a tight leash. Always a man of now…but today is a different day. Today, his mind like the clouds above, float to another time, to another life. He thinks of her, his one ­­­love.

Years roll away and he is transported to that time, that day when she came into his life. Life was good then; he thought life couldn’t be better, a good job, a beautiful house and a loving family. But unknowing to him there was this unfathomable void in his life, he wasn’t even aware of, till her. And when he did his life turned around, he felt complete. She fascinated him. She was all that he was not, lively, cheerful, open and full of life. While it was difficult for him to open up, she laid bare her soul to him, never hesitating to show her feelings to him. With her he slowly learned to express his innermost thoughts kept hidden all these years. They connected in so many levels, so tuned to each other. They often wondered… What was destiny up to? Was it to let them meet and then rip them apart? There had to be a reason why they met. It could not be just these brief stolen moments they had.

He hoped and believed that someday they would spend their life together. He had never felt love like the way he felt love for her.­­­­ He was happy. He wanted nothing more than to live life with her and yet he couldn’t. He had commitments, responsibilities towards his loved ones. He could not abandon them. So he made the choice for them. He set her free…

She was shattered but like him there was somewhere in her heart hope and belief that someday he would come and get her. Days became months and soon months became years. Worlds separated them. She tried to run away from the pain of waiting and longing but kept returning. Something about him left no room to sever all ties. She slipped in and out of his life. The first time she did that, he was lost and afraid. He thought she was gone from him for always. He couldn’t hold her because he had no right. He had to let her go. But she came back. Soon he became quite used to her escapades, knowing in his heart she would come back to him. And she did till one day….

It was one of those days when she tells him that she needs to go away from him. He no longer panics and he says that he understands. In the earlier days he would always ask her “For how long honey?” and she would always answer “I don’t know baby, till I feel I am strong enough to do so” or to his question “How will I know you are ok?”… “Don’t worry, if something happens to me you will be notified”. He is always restless when she disappears like this but being a patient man he waits…
Days roll into weeks. His uneasiness grows. Replies to his mails are left unanswered. Her phone remains switched off. Being a man of reason he keeps telling himself that she needs more time and she will come back to him. He also thinks perhaps she has met someone, someone who can fulfill her in every way and she needs time to tell him. Mixed emotions stir in his heart. He loves her so much that he wants her happiness and yet the thought of losing her to someone is something he is not prepared to deal with. He feels her pain, her longing, her desire to be with him which seems futile to her and sometimes even to him and yet he is not willing to give up on them. Days seem endless with no news of her and he immerses himself in his work to keep his sanity. More than a month later the call comes…It was quick the caller said. She died instantly as the truck swerved and hit her car but it took hours to pull her mangled body out of the wreckage. They found his phone number and a picture of him and her in her bag.

The blood drained off from his face, it was like lightening had struck him. He couldn’t move or speak for awhile. He doesn’t even remember what he told the person on the phone. He sat still for hours incapable of anything but as he slowly came back to his senses, he knew something of him died that day with her passing away. His pain and his loss was never noticed by anyone not even his close ones because he was never one to express or show much of his feelings. But since that fateful day he took to watching the sunset, as if searching for her there somewhere in that orange glow. That was his time with her.

A clock chimes in the house and his reverie is broken. A lone tear slides down his face. He still misses her. But his faith is unfailing. He still believes that he will be with her in another lifetime, to complete what they had begun. Their love story, their tale of a lifetime is yet to end….




   

45 comments:

  1. wow Rimly really really good.. Sad with a capitol S but really well written.. Your soul was crying when you wrote this.. You are an amazing writer and women

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  2. Thank you Jim. This was from the man's perspective. I am glad you liked it.

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  3. hi rimly. i'm following your blog. come follow mine. luky. http://www.lukysherman.blogspot.com/

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  4. once you think of me
    dead and gone
    you will make up with me
    you will miss me
    you may even adore me

    translated by Jonathan Star
    "Rumi - In the Arms of the Beloved"

    what kept them away? what kept them to starve for each other when they could be together? very sad story. hope is the destiny of the living and wait is that of the dead. that is the thought that is still lingering after reading the story. you keep everyone attached even after the end.

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  5. Tragic but beautiful story...gripping tale of lost love and tragedy but with a happy ending. Their souls will meet even if they couldn't. Love it. Rimly.

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  6. Rimly,You did it again. Sad but beautifully written. You had me in tears...

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  7. hope it does continue anew ...

    Lovely A

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  8. Wonderful article Rimly. The emotions the man undergoes have been beautifully captured especially the feelings both had for each other.

    One word to describe the article. Lovely!

    regards,

    Prashant
    *+

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  9. @L.A. Sherman thank you for your visit. Will surely go and visit your blog and follow

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  10. Sancheeta love your comment. Sometimes commitment is a much stronger force than love.

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  11. Again showing your skills as a writer..a superb one..no one can do this Rimly..the pain,the love,the passion..everytime you write,its magic..I don't want to feel this kind of pain, loneliness scares me..can't say as what the future has in store for me..

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  12. Hi my optimistic Outlier, lets hope they recognize each other in other lifetimes. Thank you Sulekha

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  13. Eva I didnt mean to make you cry. Thank you so much dear friend

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  14. A I hope it does. Thanks a ton.

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  15. Aragorn it is lovely to see you here. Yes I tried to write it from the man's point of view. Thank you so much. I am glad you liked it

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  16. The future has all good things stored for you dear soul sis. You have to believe that. Love you Alpana. Thank you for always saying lovely things about my writing

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  17. Rimly,

    Exceptional!
    Surreal elements of a dream the torture bites to the soul.
    xoxo
    Jessica

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  18. A beautiful written story Rimly, so tragic and sad...x

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  19. Thank you Jessica and Louise. I know it is a sad story but hope never dies. It carries forward to the next life

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  20. Loved this post, certainly saw glimmers of my life in your words. I really admire the unbreakable commitmemt, it's such an admirable trait. Very tragic but enjoyable to read!!!

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  21. Yes David you would connect with it because of your bonding with Erin and your firm belief that you will meet her again. Thank you so much. xoxo

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  22. Wonderful, wonderful!!!! Well done Rimly!

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  23. I got goose bumps on the third line. Great Writing!

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  24. very well done lovely is right thank you and god bless

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  25. Rimly loved it and how beautiful you have written it.Its so sad that sometimes people meet their soul mates but the time is just wrong...

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  26. Dear Rimly, The Man's perspective.... is it really so? Does he really care? I doubt it. If he cared, he wouldn't be so far off, whatever his responsibilities... he would have been by HER side.

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  27. Love goes on...despite our choices and age..Beautiful, Rimly! You truly are a very gifted writer.

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  28. You blow my mind each time - Beautiful Rimly!

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  29. Beautiful....heart achingly beautiful....loved it!!

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  30. Rimly, this has torn at my heart. Great writing!

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  31. @Jidhu thank you for your comment
    @Nelieta love your comment. Thank you
    @Roy god bless my friend
    @Radznand thank you. Sometimes I guess it is not that simple, to walk away from responsibilities even for love
    @Corrine your comment made my day. Thank you
    @Kriti my gorgeous goddess thank you
    @Swati thank you sweetheart
    @Mary this was supposed to be tragic. Love you for your comment

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  32. oh rimly how could you... hmmmm... i feel so close to your post because you've used some very familiar lines... and the waiting could be so intense...
    if not in this lifetime...yes, probably, the next ;)...liked it :)

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  33. Melissa my dear friend I wonder what were the familiar lines... Thank you. For waiting one has to have unwavering faith

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  34. Very touchy.. Wen I was reading it, I thought in the end they will meet at some point.. but the end was a catchy surprise.. I'm wondering why people make relationships so complicated.. The love should b made in the simplest way... but yea life has it's own shades & surprises..
    A soul binding post.. well done Rimly.. :)

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  35. Ouch. Such a heartbreaking tale... yet I admire the honor of the characters. They loved, but knew it was not time to be togeher despite the pain of being apart.

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  36. Thank you Monu. Everything in life is simple, it is us who make it complicated

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  37. Yes Rachel there is always a time for everything. Thank you

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  38. This pain!!! I wanna scream Rims!! aaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..... like that... out in the beach all alone and take it all out if I could.

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  39. Did feel better screaming aaaaaaarrrrgggghhhh Sheba? Love you.

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  40. Thank you Jenny, Roy and Ruchi

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