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Friday, March 11, 2011

My name is Heart


I was once young and full of life, enthusiastic blood pumping through my veins. I looked forward to embark on this journey called life, full of excitement, thrill and romance. Whenever people would ask my keeper “What do you want in life?” I would make her say “Oh I want excitement, I don’t want a boring life. I want to experience everything because ‘variety is the spice of life’ (that was my motto!). I sure wasn’t prepared for the roller coaster of a life I have had since. My keeper, poor thing, she didn’t know what she was getting into either, following me the way she did. She would have been better off listening to Reason. God he is so boring, so practical, no fun at all! But I suppose my hold on her was more than Reason. He tried time and again to make her see things his way but….

 I have two loyal friends though. One the window to my soul, she only shows the world what I want her to show. The world can see through her when I am happy or sad. Sometimes when I ache and can no longer take the pain, she will refresh me and lighten my pain by shedding some tears. Sometimes when I don’t want the world to see me vulnerable, she will wear rose tinted glasses.  Oh she is gorgeous! The other, my life source, my very essence, without him I am a goner. He works night and day to rejuvenate me. We had made a pact the day I was born that he would ceaselessly continue to replenish me, pumping his life saving liquid into me till I tell him to stop. The three of us have been no match for poor old Reason. These days he sits in some corner sulking.

Today when I look back at the life we have had, I have no regrets and I am sure none of the two have either. Oh sure I don’t look as pretty as I used to. No matter how hard I try to sew up the tears and rips, it is still a shoddy job. My walls keep bleeding; they just stare at me accusing me for putting them through so much. There are some wounds that just refuse to heal no matter how hard you try. After all what do you expect after all the battering and bruising? Oh but I have had my share of fun too. I feel enriched and more complete than ever before.

 My friend has lost some of her sparkle but it is still there nevertheless and my life saver,( oh I love him) well he is getting a bit slow, no longer bubbling with that much excitement as he used to. These days my keeper needs to boost him once in awhile with medicines.  As for my keeper, god bless her soul, there have been times in our journey when she has pleaded with me “Please stop, go slow, sometimes let me listen to Reason!” but I couldn’t. I would tread fearlessly where there was agony as well as ecstasy; I have had my share of adventure and misadventure. I have met wonderful people with like minded hearts, made friends that will be with me till I finally call it a day. Oh I wouldn’t trade all that for anything! She is getting old, my keeper, her bones are tired and weary but I know deep inside she will always be ready for another romance, another voyage. I just have to sniff out one before we are off, all four of us, to experience life’s myriad faces.
My name is Heart.

24 comments:

  1. The heart so fragile yet so strong. The heart carries with her many emotions and yet comes out stinger than ever.... I do love the way you see your heart.

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  2. Beautiful heart, love it and envy you for having had such a great time with it.May god bless you and keep you both safe forever. You and your heart both Rock.

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  3. Fabulous Rimly - just let me get there and then you'll see how I bring these 4 pieces together - you will have trouble keeping pace with your keeper and your friend. Fantastic writing.

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  4. WOW Rimly.. wow I really loved this.. I mean it was wonderful.. a great writing/essay. It is to much to call it a poem.
    Thank You for giving all of us, this.

    http://jpweddingphotograpy.blogspot.com/2011/03/trip-to-lion-country-safari.html

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  5. i really bow in reverence when i read your writings... oh geez, a double wow for me... truly amazing how you could weave something as beautiful as this :)...

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  6. I heart this.. So well written and thoughtful..

    Thank you A

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  7. Thank you so much all of you. this was one of those spur of the moment writing. @Kriti I am looking forward to that. We will see who will keep pace with me, my "keeper" or her friend.@Jim thank you as always for your beautiful comments.@Melissa thank you, thank you, a double thank you!!!@YogaSavy I read your piece on love, it's beautiful. Thank you.@My Outlier wanted to tell you that this came out of nowhere. I am improving from my tragic self. Thanks to you

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  8. My heart is also like your keepers heart, and I wouldn't trade my life for anything either...another fantastic post Rimly...Enjoyed it very much!!

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  9. @Swati thank you. Would love to meet your heart soon.
    @Tameka long time. Thank you so much

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  10. Rimly, loved it. May the heart always win!

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  12. @Lavina thank you. Cheers to the heart!
    @Anamika thank you

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  13. The heart has its reasons which reason knows nothing of. ~ Blaise Pascal

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  14. Congratulations on winning the Versatile Blogger award. I won also, nominated by JP Brandano. What a nice accomplishment for us both! It's nice to have our work recognized by our fellow bloggers. I've joined your blog and look forward to getting to know you better through your blog!
    http://www.mariscamera.blogspot.com/
    Regards, Mari

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  15. This was enchanting to read, I loved it from the beginning to the end and did smile when you said reason was sulking in the corner, that's where mine is right now :)

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  16. Thank you Debra, Mari, Sweepy Jean, SJ and Janine. Really appreciate your comments

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  17. super writing, sis!!! absolutely super

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  18. Beautiful post Rimly...;) I kind of reflect something a bit of what you say here... Thanks for writing wonderful stuff...

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