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Tuesday, June 21, 2011

The Story Of Many.....PART II





I have been thinking of writing now for quite a few days but somehow not been able to. I guess the response to Timelessness….a collaboration has overwhelmed me and I’m bereft of words. Then the idea came to me to write a sequel to The Story Of Many…  (http://rimlybezbaruah.blogspot.com/2011/06/story-of-many.html) I want to continue with the journey of this beautiful creature after her flight away from her nest, from her soul mate. As I wrote I kept in mind a few beautiful friends of mine who are like me romantics to the core so I dedicate this to them. To you lovely ladies… Alpana PrasadSancheeta Biswas, Melissa TandocSulekha Rawat, and Jessica BrantAnd lastly I write this for another soul sister of mine, Inky Sen who has always been a pillar of strength for me.
  




The Story Of Many…. PART II

Across planes and valleys she flies, willing her tired wings to continue its rhythmic flapping across the vast expanse. Alone but for the clouds and the wind to cheer and encourage her to keep moving with promises of a new home, she flaps her weary wings. The ancient, wise, majestic, snow capped mountains whisper to her of the mysteries of the world; the ever changing nature of life, of death and rebirth, of decay and renewal, of the eternal yearning of the human soul, of accepting and surrendering to life as it unfolds. She wants to shout back, “I know, I know, but I am none the wiser.” But she has no more wind in her to argue with them, all she wants is to reach her place of rest, her home of childhood days when life was simple, carefree and full of dreams. She has to rest, needs to heal before she can fly again to destinations unknown. She is going to a place where there are those close to her heart who will engulf her in their warm comforting embrace, soothing her battered soul, helping her to become whole again.

The sun is fading as it takes a dip in the western horizon. She searches for that nest amidst the play of shadow and light. As she swoops down her gaze fall on it nestled cozily among other habitats. A sense of relief and deep sadness overwhelms her…she has finally reached a destination but she has left behind something of hers forever and there was no turning back. For a moment she wants to drop dead crashing through the clouds and smashing like an egg. She finally comes to her resting nest. Love is all around as they gather her in their warmth. She allows them to fuss over her, welcoming her with their cooing words of comfort, savoring the moment she feels safe. As she drifts off to a dreamless sleep of sheer exhaustion, she knows she has a long way to go in trying to pick up the pieces of her shattered life but she has loving hands to gently lift her from her bottomless pit of despair. She thinks of one in particular, a soul sister, and bird of the same feather, wise, kind, compassionate and understanding, without her life stands to become an endless blur.

Seasons have come and gone she still remains in her home. In moments of despair she is tormented by thoughts of him, her soul mate. Nights sometimes seem endless as she tosses and turns fraught with questions…does he think of her, does he  miss her like she misses him, or has he gone away so far that she does not even cross his mind? The questions and doubts keep her awake till she has to shake herself out of this obsession and concentrate on all those that love her, grateful to the almighty that she is surrounded by love. Her soul sister is by her side always, patiently listening to her as she pours out all the pain of broken promises and buried desires, comforting her with compassion and understanding. They talk endlessly.

What is it with women like them who love like they do, who would move heaven and earth for their love? Men weren’t like that, they are not ruled by the heart, and they will weigh the pros and cons of the situation and act keeping their well being in mind. And yet not all women are like them either, they are smart and practical. They would never relinquish their position, they are happy living their lives with material comfort, their social status where the heart does not have much to say. Are they better off or are women like them who would give up everything for love live a fuller life? She shudders, thinking of the pain and agony that women like her go through, sometimes the futility of their situation almost choking them. She thinks of some of her other soul sisters, exquisite, beautiful creatures who are like her, die hard romantics who let their hearts rule them. They are all like goddesses where their men put them up high on that pedestal, swooning over their feet, (http://findingonesway.com/2011/06/unleashed/) professing undying love but not having the courage to do anything about it. They know it is hopeless and yet they cannot give up, they cannot control their heart, living their days with maybe a tiny flicker of hope that someday things will change. After all love conquers all and there have been men who have given up everything for love even their rightful throne.

Time unfolds into years. Some days are good while there are days that are never ending. She waits for the night to come just relieved that another day has ended. But she was healing with the help of her friends and loved ones. She longed to find love again, to find a mate who would be there for her. Buoyed by hope days would pass in anticipation of discovering herself again in her longing. She hoped and believed and she waited…then one night he came to her in his dreams. He was a stranger… with a twinkle in his eyes, love and compassion written all over his face as he looked at her. Something stirred in her, something that lay dormant all these years. She felt a sense of peace, as if all the wounds had finally healed. She felt a sense of belonging and she wanted to trust her heart again looking at his angelic face, strong and yet tender. She woke up with a song in her heart. It was a dream but she just knew someday soon he will walk into her life and she was ready….for love to bloom once again in her heart.      

50 comments:

  1. As soon as forever is through, I'll be over you...isn't that what it really is? Or die hard romantics like us believe that...He taught me how to love, but not how to stop.Or do u think it is worth it, the times we were happy together are worth the times we cry alone?
    I will come back to comment again,Rimly,u have given me so much to think about.."I'm going to smile and make you think I'm happy, I'm going to laugh, so you don't see me cry, I'm going to let you go in style, and even if it kills me - I'm going to smile."

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  2. Thank you my dear Alapana. The truth is we can never give up hope, that is what this post is all about. We have to believe in love and finding love

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  3. what a great insight to loves many facets Rimly.
    May I say also that the pictures are getting better oh wow!

    A

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  4. I really believe that love is always there in us, hurt sometimes buries it but in most love is only second to nourishment in what drives us. Men or women we all want love to be loved and to give love. I will tell you a secret about men.. Our biggest fear is being alone and unloved

    As always you write from your soul to reach our hearts

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  5. "Hope is a waking dream", and dreams always come true..you just have to believe in them. Rimly, you are a true poetess, with a million poems and stories hidden in your heart and an ocean full of love in your soul. BEAUTIFUL story my dearest Outlier...loved loved loved it. Thanks for the tag <3

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  6. beautiful, lovely and rhyming :)

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  7. faith, hope, and love is the body of our soul. hope is the wings of the heart of the soul love. faith is the body of the soul. their within you that is why you live for love . thank you for the love god bless

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  8. I am glad I read this post. Stirred me...never give up on hope. Well written. You can go thru my blogs @ janukulkarni.blogspot.com.

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  9. Life can seem to be a waiting game. That moment when your paths cross and you know you've found your soul mate. I know that everyone has the right one just waiting for the right time ... writing like yours surely sets the mood .. you are awesome

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  10. Oh Rimly...a lump is forming on my throat and I had to let it out first...It felt like I just watched "How to make an american quilt" again. We sew pieces of our stories together weaving one whole quilt...

    I'm so glad to have found soul sisters here such as you.

    I've entered deeply into your writing...it's my heart reflected... stories we share... journey we are undertaking... love...oh love... Rimly... where are you love?

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  11. Made me feel sad as I know the waiting can kill for love is so important to me. Sometimes when my hubby travels long distance, almost feel like what you have written.

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  12. Rimly,

    Is it giving up hope or just letting go of something that will is inevitably doomed from the start?
    It is one thing to believe in love and being in love it is another to fool yourself in believing the one you love will ever be with you. Here in lies the pain, heartache, lonely days and night unfulfilled hopes and dream that will never come to be..... Ii takes TWO and if one is unable or unwilling what is the point of continually holding on to an empty dream....
    My soul is consumed with love and it biter sweet counter part..
    Rimly, Alpana, Don't we deserve it ALL? Are we gluttons for punishments and slaves to our hearts and the love we have for men that we will never be able to behold other than in our dreams...
    Sometimes I wish my passions were never awakened.. I hate the pain, I hate the hollow, sinking feeling in my heart and soul that accompanies "LOVE and being IN LOVE"
    So I will hide as to not feel the torment of disillusioned love.
    Your sister
    Jessica

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  13. A I knew you would love the pictures. Thank you

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  14. Hi Rimly, what a beautiful post! It really does pull at the strings of the heart. What we wouldn´t give for love...

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  15. Jim thank you for sharing the secret about men. But even when men find love they do not have the courage to to put into action. Thank you for your beautiful comment

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  16. Thank you my beautiful Outlier.Thought of your and your ever optimistic outlook towards life

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  17. @Rachit thank you once again for visiting and commenting
    @Roy we all want to find love. Thank you so much and God bless

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  18. Thank you Janu for commenting on my post. Will surely go and visit your blog

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  19. Larry sometimes we meet the right one when it is too late in life but we cannot give up on hope and love to come into our life. Thank you so much for commenting

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  20. @Melissa I am so glad to have discovered a soul sis on you. We are all on a journey that will enrich us along the way through agony and ecstasy. Love you

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  21. Thank you Nava K. I know loneliness can be killing sometimes

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  22. Jessica my soul sis we deserve much more but somehow we are unable to break free from this hopeless situation. All we can do this is wait, watch and let life unfold. I am sure and I know there are more beautiful pastures awaiting us if only we allow it. Love you sweetheart

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  23. Yes Nelieta what we do for love. As Byron says "Man's love is of man's life a thing apart. 'Tis a woman's whole existence." Thank you for commenting

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  24. There is a real sweeping sadness in your writing...it is beautiful Rimley. I am almost in tears...but I liked the hope in it too.. x

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  25. Thank you so much Louise. xoxo

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  26. "What is it with women like them who love like they do, who would move heaven and earth for their love?" A question for all ages, and one that I dissect all the time, in my head, in my poetry, in my breathing... It's a question for which there is no answer, or answers unique to the person asking the question - meaning it varies for each of us in our love pursuits.. I echo Louise's comment above, but would add there is honesty, too. Lovely writing.

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  27. Rimly, always poignant, always drawing us in deep with your powerful words and imagery....but always ending on a note of hope! You're a brave and lovable woman, Rimly and it won't be long before you find the best person for you.

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  28. Hey Rimly -

    Here's how I see it. If true love exists then it cannot be broken apart. Either one of the two, or both, were never truly in love in the first place. I know I am an underdog here as everyone wants to believe they know them selves very well. Not so at all.

    What many people call love, is actually "in-like-a-lot". This is an infatuation that mediates an inner need that many people like to misinterpret as love. So can being "in-like-a-lot" hurt? Yes it will hurt. Why? The pain is from not only losing the person we thought we are in love with, the hurt is because we deceived our selves into believing we were in love and never really were. That's where the hurt comes in.

    Rimly, you will love and love well. There is no doubt in my mind about that. :)

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  29. Another beautiful post....I hope there's going to be a Part III...cant wait to hear the end, and please make it happy!! :)

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  30. Brenda we will never know but like you say it varies from person to person. Thank you so much for your comment

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  31. Thank you Corrine for your well wishes always. I really would love to meet you someday. xoxo

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  32. Charlie I understand what you are trying to say. But sometimes even true comes late in life and there is nothing you can do about it because the person you want to be with cannot because of his commitments elsewhere then what do you do? You have to move on. Thank you so much for reading and commenting.

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  33. Swati thank you so much. I am sure the third if there is any will be happy. Love you

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  35. Wonderful....great story of hope...Standing again after a break down...

    really liked it..you are a good writer...

    I really feel pain and time passing by slowly....as you described it very well in

    "Time unfolds into years. Some days are good while there are days that are never ending. She waits for the night to come just relieved that another day has ended."

    I really can relate this to some situations in my life...

    masterpiece...

    Loved all the Pictures/Images in this post as well the first part post...

    keep writing...

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  36. I am so glad you could relate to some of the things in this post Hema. Thank you for visiting and commenting

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  37. Nice Rimly. Been in and in, and in and staying in love with the one who I looked at 43 years ago. No white steed for me to sweep her away, just a beat up '39 De Soto.
    Another secret about men- we like to be strong keeping feelings tight because we don't want to appear weak. All around us in Nature the female seeks out the strongest male, the Alpha male to breed with. And sometimes women confuse that with not being compasionate and loving- we are.
    Given time in a trusting loving relationship we can just be ourselves and show our true feelings because we are confident we've got your love.

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  38. Rimly and others please start using the word "some" in front of the word "men" !!!!! :)

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  39. It is so true...women are ruled by the heart. That sometimes makes us vulnerable, but it also gives us a beautiful capacity to love deeply those whose lives touch ours. Beautiful post. And I love the image you chose to correspond with it. Beautiful.

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  40. Tip:

    Why don't you move into Heaven & Earth and then you will find the love that you desire.

    Beautiful writing as usual my dear,
    Mike

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  41. Rimly --

    You are such a romantic! I guess I am half-way between the types of women you describe. I love deeply and also I must consider realistically what's best for me. I hope you find your heart's desire!!

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  42. Jim first of all thank you for visiting and commenting. You are one of those lucky few who have found your soul mate. I also not all man are like that there are men who will also move heaven and earth to get their love. And I am sure you are one like that. But when it comes to commitment for some men it is a tough call for them.

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  43. Mike, heaven is here on earth as well as hell. And why cant we find love on earth?:)) Thank you so much

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  44. Hi Linda thank you. Yes I am a total romantic and that can be killing

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  45. Thank you Jessica. Yes women who are controlled by the heart have a deep capacity for love as well as pain

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  46. Love is as fragile as the wings of a butterfly...yet the caterpillar has the faith to surrender itself to the process to be the Butterfly..it has to die the Shaman's Death to be reborn.

    Rimly..you speak of the sorrows and joys of Love known and love lost. It is the experience of the Human Heart to truly know love. But, we move throught the stage of the Cocoon..over and over...surrendering, learning and flying again..faith and hope continuing to transform..forever tasting from the well.You are a true romantic..."He" is searching for "You" and when the time is right..."You" will be found...

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  47. I will try this again..I left a comment but it seems it did not make it on your wall...

    Those helping hands...all the relationships that come over time, teaching, and moving forward...closer to the one you seek. But the lessons learned are sometimes hard and painful..yet need to be experienced to know Love and to Know what is your Love. We are lead by our Hearts..that is a beautiful part of the Woman's Spirit...and the most powerful. And that Heart..seeks its match to someday bestow it's love upon.

    We need to die the Shaman's Death...leave those old patterns behind, leave behind the things that no longer serve, leave old relationships that have long outlived their purpose...it is only then that you are born again.

    Always walk your truth in your Love...and when it is compromised, find your centre and walk it again. As you experience, learn and grow you will then Know. Your Spirit will attract that Soul that is the Match to your Heart...it will be the Male version of you...and you the Female version of Him.

    I know this, because I have lived it.

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  48. Thank you Leeann as always for your sensitive and wise comments. I really look forward to them. reading your comment makes me hope, especially the line.."He" is searching for "You" and when the time is right..."You" will be found...
    We are so much like the caterpillar that keeps surrendering, dying the Shaman's Death. I hope someday I find the Male version of me who will do everything in his power to fulfill love.
    Thank you once again.

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  49. I adore your each and every word. You are FAB!!

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